by: Andrew Spada
Jan 26, 2024
2023 was a tumultuous year for Elohim, one marked by personal challenges and revelations. Writing, she reveals, became a sanctuary, a therapeutic escape allowing her to momentarily transcend her struggles. “Can’t Remember Your Name” was born from one such moment of transcendence, crafted in the solitude of her room, a testament to the power of music as a healing force.
Her journey the past year has been a harrowing one, marked by overwhelming anxiety, more intense than anything she’d previously encountered. On tour, she found herself increasingly dependent on prescription medication, consuming doses far exceeding her prescription. The physical toll was stark: significant weight loss, uncontrollable shaking, daily bouts of vomiting – all symptoms of her acute anxiety and the excessive medication use.
Recognizing the path she was on, her team intervened, prioritizing her health and well-being over the rigors of touring. But the track is more than just an escape; it’s a direct confrontation with the darker aspects of mental health. On “Can’t Remember Your Name,” she dives headfirst into the deep end of bass-heavy, dance-centric sonics. The track finds her synthesizing elements of bass and house into a cohesive whole, all while her ethereal vocals float atop the dense undercurrent of swelling bass and resonant synths. The song emerges as a raw confession, with lines like “I take the drugs so my fears go away” laying bare her personal struggles. It’s a rare glimpse into the psyche of an artist, an unfiltered expression of vulnerability and strength that defines her place in the music landscape. It’s a bold and vulnerable step forward; a candid reflection of her struggles with mental health and the double-edged sword of medicating to solve it.